Delilah

Grieve not, nor think of me with tears
But laugh and talk to me as if I were beside you.
I loved you so . . .
'Twas Heaven here with you
-- Isla Paschal Richardson

From the start, Delilah had been protected by angels. A woman from another rescue group was picking up a dog from her breed. She had noticed two dogs in a corner and asked about their future and was told they had none! She asked if she could have them and was told, yes! This is how Delilah came to CPCRN.

March 12, 2005: Delilah is still extremely shy but sweet; when she looks at you with her beautiful brown eyes, your heart just melts. We are moving very slowly with her so as not to overwhelm her with too many new sights, sounds, people & pups. At 21 pounds, Delilah is slightly overweight but looks heavier than she really is because she has a thick coat with a very soft undercoat. She has beautiful coloring / markings; darker head and ears with a light wheaten body. Delilah LOVES to be groomed whether we brush her or use the Mars comb; she is most comfortable & content at that time.

March 22, 2005: We had Delilah outside today as well so she could meet, real up close and personal and not between baby gates, our other 3 Cairns. A very successful meeting; lots of sniffing (even Delilah got her nose involved), checking out body parts and most importantly, NO problems! We will now continue to have them all spend more time together as each day goes by.

Delilah has made the most progress in allowing us to touch & pet her. She is still very hand shy but as long as you approach her slowly & from the front, she loves to be petted & scratched and brushed. It is going to take some time to get her to trust but we will just take things one baby step at a time.

April 19, 2005: Sometimes being a foster mom is the hardest job in the world. When no matter how much of your heart and soul you pour into your kid it is not enough to save them from the demons of their past.

Today was such a day.

Delilah tried so very hard to be a normal cairn girl. But her fear was too great, and she would try to bite to take control of life. After what looked to be promising improvements her fear took a greater hold. And she just could not come back from it.
Today she went to the Rainbow Bridge in loving arms.This was not how the story was supposed to end.

Let us instead focus on the wonderful day she had in the spring-like weather yesterday. Running and playing and having a smiling good time, once more before the demons closed in forever.
Play little one, run and frolic and dance in joy... you were very loved... you will be missed.

Lynne and Joe, you are brave souls. You did everything you could and you did it with love. Know that the end was not your fault. It was the fault of the hellhole she came from.

Remember, in your hearts, you gave her that precious time, you gave her love and comfort. It was more than she had ever had before.

April 20, 2005: Thank you all so much for your words of comfort & support and your prayers. We are so very, very sad here right now. My heart just aches for Delilah, and all the others who could not overcome their fears to live the good life they so deserved to have. We had such high hopes for Delilah since she did seem to be improving, although very slowly, until several days ago when she began to revert back to the behavior she displayed when she first arrived at our home. It seems the more she interacted with and the more time she spent outdoors with our pups, the less she tolerated us or our touch.

It was always difficult to get a picture of Delilah as she used to scurry away when we came too close but I got one the first time she actually ran around the backyard. I just love the way the sun shines on her face. We will always remember Delilah as she was on Monday; having the time of her life in the backyard with Owen, Murphy and Alina. She played with them with such joyful abandonment - running, rolling, digging and even cuddling with Murphy.

Delilah was truly loved and will be greatly missed by all of us. She never once, in the entire time she was here at home, barked, yipped or even growled. Strange how our home is so quiet right now without the sweet girl who never made a sound. Godspeed, dear Delilah. We hope you now have the peace that you weren't able to find here on earth. Know you will always hold a very special place in our hearts.
Lynne & Joe

Lynne and Joe,
I just looked at the picture of your little girl. Oh she has such a smile on her face and her ears are up and full of enthusiasm! This is the picture that she will be remembered by. She appears to be walking with a little spring in her step too! She is wonderfully colored and you can tell in that picture that she is loved. The warmth on her face from the sun shines in our eyes now. You both are, were and will be again wonderful Foster parents.

If you take a moment to stop and think of all the firsts' she had with you two, it is just amazing. Love, hugs, companionship, warmth, a clean bed, fresh food and plenty of water. She had never had that. You were the lucky ones to have given her that. I feel that was her gift to you.

It was a miracle that both she and Donovan got out alive. But they did and we loved them. We gave to them as we give to our own, unconditionally. Now they both are together and one day we will be with them again.

Candles lit for our kids that have gone before us!
Lori, Donovan's Foster Mom

My, My, My Delilah